Chapter Sixteen
"I don't believe you. Prove it to me that you dressed up for me, " he growled, watching Renée like he had lost his mind. Renée stood frozen, looking down at her feet with more tears threatening to fall from her eyes. She had no idea how to prove it to him that she only dressed up for him? The way she escaped from Matt was proof enough but he was blind and oblivious in his rage to see that.
"C'mon prove me, " he gritted out. Her eyes flew up to his face. Her hands touched his cheek tenderly and she pulled his face down to hers. Her sweet mouth gently claimed his hot angry lips, sucking them, coating them with her sweetness, calming them. Sawyer's head turned to mush. It was the most touching and overwhelming kiss ever, leaving Sawyer too stunned to react. Seeing his frozen state, Renée released his mouth.
"Did you get your proof, Sawyer? Did you feel my love for you?" She whispered, releasing him. She picked up her clothes and ran to the washroom and locked herself inside, finally letting the tears fall, as she crumpled to the floor.
Sawyer came out of his trance, his heart started beating wildly. That simple yet beautiful kiss was so tender and precious, showing him clearly how much she loved him. He felt guilty for over reacting the way he did. He knocked on the door of her washroom.
"Ren, please open the door. I'm sorry," he said in an almost pleading tone but Renée didn't open the door. He closed his eyes and counted ten. He could hear her sobs although she tried her best to be as silent as possible.
"I'm sorry I over reacted. Please open the door Renée, " he pleaded but Renée didn't listen to his pleas. Sawyer waited for twenty minutes but she didn't come out of the washroom. He heard Rihanna's footsteps as she came back from the party and went to her room. Sawyer couldn't stay here much longer. What if someone came in to her room and found him? He had to leave. He quietly slipped out of her room and went to his. Changing out of his clothes, he lay down on his bed.
Even after an hour, Sawyer couldn't sleep. He had heard aunt Helena discussing about a probable wedding between Matt and Renée in the near future and he had been too disturbed ever since. The whole time they planned and plotted and all Sawyer wanted was to announce his feelings for her. But he couldn't! If she were older, he could have announced already and married her by hook or crook but she was just seventeen and his hands were tied. He felt helpless and depressed. He couldn't let Renée marry Matt. She was his, only his.
The next morning, everyone was tired from the party last night but Sawyer was restless. He wanted to pull Renée into his arms and kiss her. After that sweet kiss that she gave him, he couldn't stay away any longer. His whole body burned with a fire that only her kisses could douse. He wanted to remind her about the outing that he had promised to take her today. It would be their first date together! A secret date! He freshened up quickly and went out of his room to see what she was up to.
He searched the whole house. It was already 8 o'clock in the morning and he couldn't find Renée anywhere. Where could she be so early in the morning? He went out and saw Rihanna jogging around the house. His eyes almost popped out seeing Renée clad in a hot yoga pant and a sleeveless top, jogging alongside her. Her hair was tied on top of her head in a ponytail and she looked all flushed and rosy as she jogged to keep pace with Rihanna. He stood leaning against a pillar watching them with a smirk.
"Hey lazy butt! Why don't you join us?" Asled Rihanna, grinning at him.
"Nah, I'm good! I prefer watching you girls," he said with a grin.
"Aren't you creepy?" Asked Rihanna.
"Does your companion think so too?" Asked Sawyer with a broad grin. Renée rolled her eyes.
"Tell your brother that your companion isn't talking to him," said Renée. Rihanna looked amused.
"You heard that brother?" She said to Sawyer who chuckled.
"I'm hurt," he said, clutching at his heart. "Then how will we go out on a date today?" He asked with fake concern. Renée's eyes momentarily lighted up hearing about the date. Then she remembered how mean he was last night.
"I'm not going anywhere with you," she told him. Rihanna rolled her eyes at the two of them.
"I'm done jogging. You two sort out your date issue," she told them, walking away towards the house. Renée was about to run after her but Sawyer caught her hand to stop her.
"I'm not done talking, Ren, " said Sawyer, looking at her fixedly.
"Leave me, Sawyer. I'm not going anywhere with you," she said, struggling to get free from his iron-like grip.
"Why not? I told you that we'd go out together today," reminded Sawyer.
"No Sawyer. You always make me feel like a liar. You always corner me and make me prove my feelings for you but what about you Sawyer? What about you? I don't know if you feel anything at all for me. I don't know if you care at all about me. I don't know if you ever can love me back. You never tell me your feelings for me. Why should I go put with you?" She rambled with tears in her eyes. Sawyer was shocked by her works. He released her hand as her words sank into his head.
Renée didn't wait for his answer. She knew he wouldn't have any answer for her. She ran into the house not wanting to do anything with him. Sawyer stood still. Her words played again and again in his head. What she said was true. He never told her hos own feelings but made that young girl confess her feelings repeatedly in front of him. It wasn't fair on her.
He walked towards the stables with the hopes of a date crumbling to dust. If he didn't confess his true feelings for her, she would never go out with him. He worked at the stables till late although it was a Sunday. He couldn't go home and face Renée. What answers would he give her? After a whole day, he returned home in the evening. His mom scowled at him.
"What made you skip your meals, Saw? I was waiting for you, " she scolded him. Sawyer gave her an apologetic smile.
"Sorry, ma, I lost track of time, " he told her but she looked at him suspiciously. Sawyer trudged towards his room. He didn't see Renée anywhere around. He showered and changed and bumped into Rihanna on his way out.
"What happened? You two didn't go out on your date?" She asked him. Sawyer shook his head.
"I got busy and lost the track of time," he lied.
"Liar, you were hiding somewhere the whole day while Renée was crying her eyes out for you here," said Rihanna. Sawyer gaped at her with his jaws dropped. She was crying for him?
"Escaping doesn't help Saw. Face your feelings, confess them to her. You'll feel much better," said Rihanna.
"It's not that easy Anna. She's still a minor. You'll have done a lot for me. I can't betray uncle Kendrick and aunt Helena's trust. They're planning to get Renée married to Matt which I can't let happen but at the moment my hands are tied. After she's eighteen, I'll surely beg everyone for her hand but before that happens, I just can't play along with her feelings, take advantage of her innocence. My love for her isn't selfish, Anna," he told her. Rihanna was dumbfounded by his words. She handed thought from his point of view at all. He wasn't wrong in his thoughts.
"Tell Renée what you told me Saw. Save her from the heartache that she's going through," said Rihanna.
"Do you think that once I confess my feelings for her there'd be any way to hold back? I've been in love with her all my life. I wouldn't be able to control myself," said Sawyer, shaking his head.
"Hmm, then what else do you plan to do?" Asked Rihanna.
"I'm at my wits ends. I can't see her upset and crying. I'll talk to her, try to cheer her up but I don't see her around. Where's she?" He asked her.
"Oh, she's gone to Anastasia's house with Ryder, " she informed him. So he had no choice but to wait for her.
They had received a call from Russell informing them about an emergency at The Imperial when a wing which needed repairs crumbled after a fire broke out at one of the guest rooms. Thankfully the room was vacant and no one was injured. Rhett and Rex would have to go with their uncle Kennedy to Las Vegas to handle the matter. It might take him long, maybe a month or so to return back home. In the meantime Sawyer would have to take up their added responsibilities being the next eldest son of the family. The whole evening, he and his dad, grand dad and uncles discussed what needed to be done at their dairy farm and also at the stables.
Sawyer was exhausted by the end of it. Renée had stayed back at her friend's house and his heart felt heavier than before.
gomesdeepa
2021-05-15 00:34:23Hmm
Rituparna_Darolia
2021-05-14 21:46:14It's not that simple for Sawyer. He's selfless and his sense of obligation towards the Wilson family overrides his feelings. He really needs a push to overcome that and confess. Waiting for her to turn eighteen is just a way of stalling the task..
gomesdeepa
2021-05-14 20:56:36You don’t need to wait for someone to turn 18 just to say I love you … c’mon
Brind2y2
2021-05-14 19:40:16Awesome ch, update soon.😀👍
Rashi3110
2021-05-14 19:31:45Amazingg chapter❤❤
Rashi3110
2021-05-14 19:31:31Sawyer is right too🤷♀️🤷♀️